Too Busy To Give It A Title

Well for better or for worse I am committed. No not institutionalized, somehow I don’t think they allow internet access in the loony bin. At least they didn’t the last (and hopefully only) time I was there. What I am trying to say is that I am about to start the painting.

I primed two canvasses yesterday (the extra just in case I need to start over). I just got done sketching the outlines for the flower and the background onto the canvas. I am freaking the fuck out! Of course now it is over the background and the overall composition. Regardless I will start on the painting as soon as I am done typing this. And since I have nothing to do but laundry and pack between now and when I leave for TN for Thanksgiving (no Red Cross tomorrow) I’ll try and get the background right before I leave.

I am cutting this awfully close. I have little time to get it right and have it dry in time for Christmas. Wish me well, say a prayer, and send positive thoughts please. My dear and fluffy lord but I am nervous as hell over this. Once I start I’m sure I’ll be fine though.

Lucky you, you’ll get to see the finished project! You remember M.B., the one who was kind enough to send me the canvasses? Well M.B. said they had a digital camera they didn’t use and offered to send it to me. Thank you again M.B.! I’ll post the painting when I’m finished, along with the practice blossoms, and the picture the painting is based on.

Good things keep happening to me. God and the universe keep showering me with blessings and I am so grateful. I got my car back on Monday and she runs wonderfully! So far I haven’t paid for anything. When I went to pick it up they wouldn’t let me. Jim the firefighter and I are arguing about how much I am going to pay. I hope he lets me chip in something.

Jim also managed to do yet another wonderful thing for me (that man is way too good to me and I’ll never understand why, but I am thankful). He has a friend who works at the local cable company (I think Jim has a friend everywhere, but given what a good man he is it is not surprising). I now have free cable internet for six months! No idea what will happen when the six months is up. I am too busy enjoying what I have right now to care.

I must admit it took me a couple of days to get used to it. I keep waiting for my signal to drop out and disappear. I love it though. I am on the net in a flash and have whatever I am after within seconds. I’m already spoiled. Having a good connection will help a lot when I start looking for an agent at the beginning of next year.

I still have not gotten anything from my therapist, surgeon, or landlord. I have decided to say fuck it all and send my manuscript out when I get back from TN. This is not exactly the radical acceptance my therapist would like me to practice, but rather a grudging impatience and desire to move on to the next stage, all the final pieces in place or not. I am still looking for one more person to proofread my manuscript. I am giving people until March to turn it back in to me. I want to give everyone plenty of time to read it.

Now about my blogging… I’ll try to post at least once a week. It seems like that is what I am doing now anyway. For some reason Thursdays seem like a good day for me to post. When things settle down I hope to go back to my usual Monday and Thursday postings.

As for stopping by your place I can’t guarantee anything. I feel like a shit. I don’t have any excuse other than the fact that I am going to be busting my hump trying to get my painting finished. Right now it is priority one. I hope the few of you who are still kind enough to keep reading my blog understand. I’ll be back. I promise. I just can’t say when.

I think my art muse has taken up residence and pushed my writing muse to the side for now. This is fine in a way since I am finished with my first draft (my part of it anyway). In another way (as glad as I am to see her, it’s been a while) I am afraid that her taking over is going to cost me my blogging and online friends due to my neglect. I hope that isn’t the case.

I will post next Thursday. I have a little something up and ready to go for Thanksgiving. I am both looking forward to it and dreading Thanksgiving. My Aunt and Uncle’s 50th wedding anniversary will be that Thursday, and the surprise party will be on Saturday. What I am dreading is the fact that since my cousin has a big new house my Sister and her family will be crashing there. That is five adults and three kids in one house. That might be a bit much for my nerves.

The kids I can take. My B-I-L I could give or take. My Sister, who gets on my last nerve… Let’s just say if you don’t hear from me again it is because I up and killed her. And while I know it is my cousin’s house, it also used to be my sanctuary and escape from the rest of my family. There will be no escape this year.

Anyway enough of that, I have too many good things happening to me and no right to bitch. I’m not sure what I did to deserve all these good things, but I am not so stupid as to question it too much. Let’s just say that this Thanksgiving I have much to be thankful for. I must also admit (at the risk of sounding greedy) that I hope that this is just the beginning.

I hope all of you have much to be thankful for as well. I count you all as part of my blessings and appreciate your patience.

Ok, gotta run…